Well..

Living the last few days of 2010. Excited? Most people are. I guess. Not me. New years are nothing but another 365 days in repeat, for me. It has nothing to do with starting over, a new beginning or any of those shit. If you want to start over, you can do it right now. Right this very second. You don't have to wait for the 1st of January every year.
*rolling eyes*
But I do have a few goals for next year. To have my own DSLR camera, that's number one. Number two would be, personal goals related to work. And, I want to travel next year. Somewhere far. Or maybe somewhere in Indonesia I've never been to. Just to get away for a while, basically. 
BUT,
I'm sure my mom and dad got one more thing to add : for me to get married.
*deep sigh*
I don't really get the whole fuss about marriage. I don't hate it. I just don't *get* it.
Get it?

Yesterday, I talked to a guy from Canada on Omegle. Richard is the name. He asked me if I'm married. I said, "No."
He asked me, "Why?". For a second there I thought, "Why....NOT?" 
I mean, why do people often HAVE to ask WHY after that answer to that question?
WHY?
I answered, "Just because. Hehe.." Then he said,"Not a fan of commitments huh?" I went,"WTF? HAHA!"
Okay, let *me* get this straight, people.
"Marriage" and "commitment" are two different, but slightly similar, things.
For *me*, I can just marry someone without having to feel committed. Like, if I ain't feeling it after a couple of months, file for a divorce.
While a commitment, that's....like, the base of it. People that are in a committed relationship will last longer. They won't give up easily. THAT is what being committed is all about. 
I'm all for commitments. But marriage? Whoa. Let's take a few steps back. Breathe.
Most of my female friends are, like, I don't know --- obsessed (?) with marriage. It's kinda scary, you guys.
Then the Canadian asked, "Don't you want kids?". Well, yeah I do. But, Sir -- you don't have to be married to have kids, I answered him. He said,"True. But, is that okay in Indonesia?"
Alright.
Let me say this to you people, YES. It's OKAY to have kids without having to get married. You can adopt. Or, if you're pregnant and the douche that knocked you up doesn't want to take the responsibility, so be it. You'd be better off raising a kid without an irresponsible dick like that anyway.As long as you're financially secure, of course. Because, come on, that baby's gonna need food, clothing, education and a shit load of other things, right? And you, judgmental Indonesians, should just shut the fuck up and stop saying shit about single moms. Like, mind your own fucking business for once. 
Clear? Good.

So, there you go. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be married. But I hope you got the most important essence of it, commitment. Because without it, hell -- you ain't gonna go far. And if you're in a decent committed relationship, don't feel -- somewhat -- intimidated by all the people around you that kept telling you, you *should* get married. Especially if you're planning to get married just to 'legalize' the sex. 
Dude! Come on. 
I know a lot of people who does that. The thing is, they only 'legalize' the sex with the spouse. But he/she thinks it's (also) fine to fuck - literally - other people besides the 'legal' partner. Consider that as another example of an uncommitted marriage. Not to mention me seeing and thinking of you as hypocrites. 
*cough*
Oh.. I just remember. Our former President, Pak Habibie and (the late) Ibu Ainun's marriage? THAT is what I call a committed marriage. He didn't left his wife when she was ill. He didn't make that as an excuse to leave and find another woman - the younger the better - to shag. He didn't even leave her room while she was hospitalized. 
Not - a - single - day. 
Until her last breath. 
THAT, my friends, is commitment. 
That's what *I'm* looking for. Not just an expensive ring on my finger - altho' I won't say no to that - and a huge party/reception/whatever. 
It's what happens after the party that counts. 
You do what you want to do when you know you're ready to do it. Everything in your life is your choice. 
YOU decide.
 
Right. 
So, mom and dad, be easy on me, 'aight?


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